So I’ve been in conversation recently with several people lately with different theological views than I have. It’s always challenging to do so; it’s like intellectual and spiritual exercise. Always good to do, but way harder than talking with people who already agree with you. I’m a bit ashamed to admit that this is a somewhat new development. I don’t know a whole lot of people in my everyday life who don’t fit in the traditional evangelical Nazarene mold, and its only recently that I’ve discovered how easily one might get sucked into online discussions.
I come away from them feeling hopeless. It seems that theology, maybe reality would be a better word, is so hopelessly tangled and out of our reach of understanding that there’s just no way we’re ever going to make heads or tails of it. There are so many people and so many different views; so many arguments, and so many conflicting arguments that all seem to make sense. There are so many intelligent people that seem to think that their ideas are self-evident; so many people who I respect that disagree with each other. It feels like trying to swim through a stormy ocean.
This is why I need God to be there. It feels like we’re lost without Him. If He’s not there, we’re never going to find our way on our own; we’re just going to swim in circles until the sharks come. If He’s not leading us, away from our ignorance and confusion, away from our weakness, then we will fall prey to our own failings. If He doesn’t lead us out of the darkness of our hatred; then we’re going to tear each other apart out of fear and ignorance.
Please God, be there.